Heal What

The Crone says today is a day of What Do You Need To Heal

Within ourselves, so that the ripples can coalesce

She states she needs to replace her judgemental feels

And I myself struggle with how to positively express

The ways in which I feel people would benefit

From healthy change.  I need to slow my mind, and calm

So that no longer to my body am I less than affectionate.

Increasingly towards self-picking behaviours I show qualm

Creating healthy connections, the soul blossoms strongly

Following the patterns of the Earth, and growing Spring

And I see us all flowing beautifully, stretching longlingly

Out into the new opening doors that life does bring.

Moon half full, let our new cycles’ intentions of seed

Be watered by our present positive actions

To grow into what is what all the world needs

As we struggle to not fall into clique-like factions.

Together we grow and divided we fall

For decades this truth together we have sung

But it is so difficult to properly express love for all –

Especially ones who have yet to come to the light indigo warrior have brung.

For me, my kindness gets eaten away quickly by the fear

That ill get drawn into a person’s life that is just there to use

And that my own castle of cards will fall apart from them and theirs being near

I’m sorry I judge drug habits… its from years of social abuse.

When people have twisted and turned your emotions,

When they have tried to break you down sexually,

When all your stuff gets stolen for someone’s meth devotions,

When you get your trust broken continually

It’s a struggle to determine real friends from crafty snakes

It’s difficult to control emotions when red flags are raised

It’s a continual pattern of separation of the little folk that this makes

It’s layers of wounds and dysfunction – leaves me gape faced, amazed.

Hopelessness struggles to penetrate my careful hull

That I have pieced together out of the rubble of my castle

After another and another have smashed it down, made it null

Yet to love and togetherness I still attempt to be a vassal

I’m such a hypocrite because I look at others and feel

Negatively about how they choose to dissociate

So that they don’t feel before the man in kneel

But, really, to others some don’t act appropriate

Do whatever the fuck you want, I guess

It’s your life and only you can live it

Just don’t screw over others in the process!

And please, try and spread to the community some benefit.